Wednesday, May 1, 2013

"The Sharp Knife of a Short Life"

Years after my friends death, I haven't fully recovered. The impact that losing someone you love leaves on you is insane. I still have those days that I miss him so much. I wonder what life would be like if he was still here. He was such a sweet guy and had so much going for him. I don't understand why he left us so early in life. It hurts my heart that he isn't here anymore. I just miss him. Sometimes, when I hear about the loss of other people, I think back to my friend. I struggle to comfort those that have lost loved ones, because I too, have lost someone close. I know that there isn't a lot you can say to someone that is hurting. The best you can do is be there as they try to work though what happened. Going though this kind of pain is unimaginable. When it's unexpected, it's a whole new story. You just don't expect life to end for people the way it does. It makes you question everything and it makes you appreciate things so much more.

I've been hurting for my brother in law these past few days. He has lost a friend and I can see that he is hurting. I don't know what to say to him. I pray for him constantly. And I am reminded of my own losses in life and how hard they were. I've given him his space and done random acts of kindness for him to ease his load after he gets off work. In times like this, words just don't seem to help. Nothing does. Time eventually heals wounds like this...but it never seems like time moves quick enough. It seems like life starts to move in slow motion and you are doing everything you can to just make it through another day.

I know all of this seems like random rambling, but it's all I've got to say right now. Life isn't always easy. We know that it's going to end eventually, but when it ends unexpectedly we don't always know how to respond. It's tough. I'm praying for my brother in law, and praying for the family effected by this tragedy. Over the years, I've experienced a lot of death and I know how much it hurts. It hurts to watch those I love go through what I've gone through. So I pray that those effected are able to move forward and appreciate what' s in front of them more. I pray that they are able to get through this time. Dealing with life isn't always easy. We aren't given the answers we always want when it comes to asking questions. We just have to keep on living and make the most of what we've got. So, I urge those of you that are reading this to look at things in a new light. I urge you to begin to truly appreciate what you have, because you don't know when you're going to lose it. This isn't some game we are playing. We are here to love one another and help each other out. Don't be afraid to ask for help and acknowledge that you are hurting. Life isn't worth wasting because you don't feel like living. The actions you make effect more people than you know. So I encourage you to seek help if you're feeling down. I know this post is a bunch of rambling, but I know from experience that things really get tough sometimes. Don't let the hard times define you. Let them help you grow into a better person so that you can help others that don't quite know what to do when life gets hard. 

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