Saturday, April 20, 2013

Learning to control my sarcasm

This isn't a profound statement or anything, but words have the power to really hurt someone. Biting my tounge is something I struggle with on a daily basis. I'm the kins of person that says whats on my mind before I think it though. I'm a realist and don't like to sugar coat things. When it comes to giving my opnion, but tend to force it on people instead of considering their point of view. I'm incredibly sarcastic and more often than not, my sarcasim comes across as me being rude or putting someone down. All of these things added into a 24 hour time slot makes ofr a rough day sometimes.

When it comes to my words, I don't usually intended to hurt people. It happens because it's easy to misunderstand what I'm trying to say. I forget that other people are sensitive and that other people don't always find my sarcasm humorous. I grew up in a home where sarcasm was used on a daily basis. I learned to hide behind sarcasm to mask my emotions. I've learned that sarcasm is often the root of anger, fear, rejection, or pain. As I've expressed in a previous blog, dealing with my emotions isn't something that's easy for me. This is a huge barrier in the way I communicate with others. Instead of just having a conversation with someone, I end up cracking a joke or poking fun at them at the wrong time. There is a time and place to be sarcastic, and every conversation definitely isn't it. I struggle to use it appropriately. I end up hurting someone's feelings and then struggle to be remorseful because I didn't think what I said was harmful even if they did. I put barriers in my relationships without even realizing it sometimes.

I know what scripture says about taming the tongue, but it's not always easy to put that into practice. For me personally, it's a daily ordeal to tame my tongue. I'm trying to learn how to be a better person. I'm trying to learn how to be a more sensitive person and to be more considerate with my words. I'm learning that not everyone appreciates my opinions and that there is a time and place to share them. My intentions are usually pure, but it doesn't always show. Growing up learning how to connect with people through sarcasm and jokes works sometimes, but I've learned it doesn't work all the time. Hiding behind sarcasm makes it difficult for people to get to know the real me. That with the mixture of my tendency to speak my mind makes me come across as a negative person. I pray often for God to make me more aware of my words so that others will be blessed by what I say and not hurt.

No comments:

Post a Comment