The reality of God

Wow. It's been so long since I've blogged! I'll just dig right in.

I was thinking about how often I question what's in front of me. I've been doing that my entire life. It's like a tick. I just have to know "why"...about everything. My quest to know "why" lead to me Christ, but it has also been a constant barrier in my life. So as I thought about it, it occurred to me that if I question whats in front of me, then aren't I allowing my imagination to become a reality as well? Questioning my reality would make things like "what could have been" or "what might be" relevant. The problem with that is making those questions relevant would put me at a place where I could never be content. I think that with God in the picture, I wouldn't really need to question things like that because He is all knowing. If God is all knowing then it means that He will let me know what I need to know on His time, not mine. If I know everything the minute God did, then in theory, God wouldn't be the God that I read about in the bible. Maybe I don't even need to know what I'm questioning? Maybe the "why?" I'm asking about isn't even a question? For example, there is no question that everyone dies, so I guess that means when I ask "why did it happen?" or "when will it happen?" isn't relevant to be asking. It's not even a question at all. It's a fact. God knows why, I don't. I suppose life isn't really about the "why" as much as it's about "what is." If I made the "why" or "what could be" more important than Jesus, then I start to run into problems. I honestly think that it's unavoidable to question the things I don't understand, but from what I'm learning, it's becoming clear that the questioning should always lead me back to Jesus, the only one that knows the answers. If He isn't answering the question I'm bringing to Him when I want, it might just be because I don't need to know yet.

I think it's great to ask God questions actually because I get to end up at a place where I know that God ultimately has control of the situation. I think failing to come to that conclusion would allow my imagination to take over the situation. I think Satin takes advantage of that. Walking through life focusing on unanswered questions is a reality in my life. Doing that has caused me to miss out on some great experiences because I was focusing on the wrong thing. There is a potential lesson to be learned in literally every situation in life, and God I think God rejoices when I learn. I think Satin also rejoices when I learn though. When I'm focused on the wrong thing, then I end up learning the hard way about things. I think Satin rejoices in those situations because doors are opened up for self destructive thinking or behavior. But when I'm focused on God in everyday situations, learning life's lessons are easy. I think God loves this because I'm being obedient to His word and trusting Him. The good news in by the grace of God, Satin doesn't get total control over learning those hard lessons. Maybe Satin is the one who allows my imagination to become a reality, instead of letting my imagination be a guide that leads me towards Truth? I'm just so grateful for God and the way he allows us to learn. I'm thankful or His timing.