Letting go isn't easy

Learning to let go of things is something I struggle with on a daily basis. Be it an argument or a material possession, letting go is simply tough. It's not easy because most of the time I've worked really hard for it. Other times, whatever needs letting go is close to my heart. Lately though, I've been struggling to let go of myself. Actually ever since I was baptized I've been fighting what seems like a never ending battle. Jesus has called us to let go of ourselves and take up the cross every day. It's easy for me to read that in the bible and want to change, but actually living that out each day is so hard. I've worked my entire life to gain the identity I have today. I've experienced pain and suffering, as well as amazing love and great joy. The friendships formed and the lives that have impacted me mean the world to me. But if I don't let go of myself and give my life completely to Jesus, all of what I've worked for is going to suffer. My ultimate goal in life is to live like Jesus in order to be reunited with Him when I die. But just because I've been baptized doesn't mean I can live my life how I want. I'm learning that the hard way. If that means letting go of old relationships and throwing away items that have potential to lead me astray, then that's what I'll have to do. The great thing about Jesus is that even though letting go is rough, he is going to place other people and opportunities in my life that will lead me to glorify Him. I have to trust Him fully in order to do that though. I pray that God continues to place opportunity in front of me so that my life and heart will align with him. I know it will be hard, and tears will be shed, but I think eternity is worth it.